Being Pissed Off

Not a long post here. Sorry. /:

Schools be crazy, and work is hectic. Lately, some issues with other people have been arising, and I just don't have a whole lot of time to post. But...here's the sitch.





I have anger management problems. Serious ones. For anyone one of you 673 viewers, in the united states (including alaska) has any ideas or suggestions about how to help, let me know. ASAP.

Thanks.

p.s. Don't tell me to throw things, or take up sports......>.>

DA DA DA DAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

hi.

So..I go back to school in 6 days. 5 if you count me visiting the best teacher ever during Freshman Orientation. I CANNOT WAIT!

I think I might just drop that thun thun thun I'm so excited.

Okay. I am really hyper...and I can't sleep.

stupid insomnia. I hope this post doesn't get boring.

I could have my own reality tv show. I just need a camera to follow me around for like...20 minuts and BOOM.

Id be more famous than Pluto after tthey took away it's planethood.

I made my coworkers a giant cookie plate. Its gonna say our place of works name written in chocolate frosting. Because I am freaking awesome like that and have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING better to do with my time.

Boo.

Uh...I don't know. I am making cookies. And you can't have any.

Sorry for the lack of engaging and intellectual thinking.

Can't help it.

<3

Thoughts From The Insomniac

Well...I got a call from the doctor today...and?

LONG STANDING INSOMNIA.
 what is it you ask?

simply,
I can't sleep. Ever. And on the rare occasion I do fall unconscious, it's restless. like I had never actually fallen asleep. I can't sleep for long periods of time.

It's just...bad.

Preparing to stay awake for the rest of my life.

Getting better at solitaire and minesweeper.

I SHALL BE A CHAMPION ONE DAY.

gosh. I seriously cannot sleep. lets see if I can find an article on LSI.

...

Click here for article


hmmm.......well, that's a few things that sounds familiar...

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/insomnia/DS00187/DSECTION=symptoms


another link.....me. all of them.

and this is why (for those of you not in my time zone)..I'm writing at 2AM.

yeah.

Rejection.

Welcome to my world again, lovely people.

Disclaimer: no offense is meant. Sorry if you take any. It isn't personal nor purposeful.

Okay...

Being rejected.

It's probably one of the worst feelings in the world. And it doesn't hurt any more than your best friends and even parts of your family rejecting you. Writing you off. Like you're the one who shot them.

I didn't do anything to you, and you just..."K" is all I get from you. I was trying to be nice. And I get K? K?!

Screw you too, bro.

Gosh. Don't you hate it when people do that?

Ugh.

That really hurts.

I need to start taking my meds again. This is ridiculous.

AGH!

I need something. I need to do something.
I need to run. I need to stretch my legs and let all of the pent up anger and frustration and depression and frustration out. I need to run.

I need to breathe.

Rejection sucks.

Don't push me away when I didn't do anything to you.

Gosh.

Thanks for listening to my rant, guys.

<3

The Earth Says Hello! (:

Hello there

This is very surprising to me...608 page views! Holy crap guys! Thanks!

I'm REALLY sorry I haven't been posting lately. There's been SO much going on in my life! 

Let me pick up basically where I left off...in quick summaries, and little picture memes (because we all love those)! 

June: My mom threw me a surprise party for my 16th birthday...my best friend D (no names) was there, and he actually just left to go home (he lives in a different state). J didn't come, because we weren't together (nor were we talking, as you know). It got really nervous and panicked because I didn't know what to do...0.0

I don't find panic attacks to be a joke, because I know they're not. I only make fun of MY OWN problems and silly mistakes and screw ups. Just so you all know and don't take offense. (:

Anyways, then...I got my license (got a 94!)

And I think that's all the exciting stuff that happened in June...

JULY! (:

Um...my sister turned 7. Which is exciting. 

My very good friend passed away...which is VERY sad. Still having a hard time coming to terms with it. /,: 

He drowned saving his friend from drowning in a waterfall. All I can think of when I think of this friend is the verse in the Bible that says that no one knows a greater love than someone who gives his life for his friends. I cried for a while...um..yeah. I can't talk about this any more.

Then J and I worked things out...the day after my friend passed. J was very helpful and supportive that night. Which was good. I needed it.

Anyways...we went on our mission trip! Which was absolutely AMAZING by the way.

We had so many amazing God moments, and saw some AMAZING sites. 

We made GREAT memories. 

It was good stuff. (:

The day after we came back, I had a job interview at the sub shop downtown where I live, and they started me that day after that. I work 6 days a week there! Plus every other saturday with a little boy who has a mental disability (he's adorable, I've been working with him for 5 years). So I get two days to myself out of the month...haha!

And now....we're here!

I know! I have a boring life, I'm sorry. Haha.

Oh! One exciting thing was I got multiple calls back from InterFace (a model agency), and they REALLY want me to come in and sit down with them. But my mom won't let me. She doesn't want to go down, and she "doesn't have time". Psh. That's okay though. 

And uh...I think that's it. 

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What do you want me to write about?

A story? A person?

Need advice?

Let me know!

-Jasmine (: