Let's Just Say...Life is Crazy.

Hey guys!
After over 1,000 views I still only have one follower. Weird

Anyways, life has been CRAZY!
I am enrolled to start college in the fall.
This is super exciting!

^^ That really is the most exciting thing I have to tell you.

For those of you who enjoy keeping up with my silly love drama, I HAVE THINGS TO TELL YOU.

So, Jt. That's what we're going to call him.
He has been my best friend for several years and we were romantically inclined for the last two. He went off to join the marines and we lost contact. He began dating this girl --let's call her Cheating-Slut (spoiler alert) -- and she blocked me, along with several of his other close female friends on facebook, insta, twitter, everything.
They broke up because she cheated on him during basic.
They got back together when he came home.
They broke up again before he left for mct.
During his mct, Jt and I got REALLY close. Lots of flirting and planning for dates, etc. I really liked/like him.
Then his dumb ass gets BACK together with Cheating-Slut.
I WAS PISSED.
Then they broke up.
Then, we were friends again -- me and Jt.
Cheating-Slut stayed true to her name and once again cheated on him.
They broke up.
Jt found out he had the chance to come hoe for a bit and we planned on going on a date and hanging out and just seeing where things went because we really weren't sure what the fuck was going on between us and him and CS.
Then, CS heard that he may have been coming home.
THEY FUCKING GOT BACK TOGETHER.

I was so hurt. I wasn't as mad as I was hurt.

I stopped talking to him for a while.
CS actually messaged me on FB asking what my problem was with her.
As some of you may know or have guessed form previous posts, I don't have much of a filter. Or self-control. So needless to say I was the bigger person and did not reply this time.

Recently, they broke up. (supposedly for the last time)
She then messaged me and said "There you go sweetheart, he's all yours. :*"

To this I replied (with an epic movie reference, if I might add)
"No thanks, sloppy seconds aren't my style."
^^ Best Grease reference ever.

So...now, Jt and I are talking just as friends. This is really as far as I'm going to let him, as much as I'd love for him to come home and surprise me on my birthday and sweep me off my feet and take me on the most romantic date ever complete with flowers, chocolates, and cuddles in the back of his truck stargazing with blankets and pillows.
^^ 100 % honest, I actually had a dream about this. Don't judge.



Developing news...
There's this super adorable super nice amazingly gorgeous and kind fire-fighter friend of mine (let's call him Sexy Fire Fighter A) who's only 2 years older than me. He is also going to be a freshman in college this year as he needs a degree in fire safety to become a full-time fire fighter.
We went on a friends night out sort of thing last night and we really hi off. I enjoyed being around him and he makes me laugh. He has a goal in life. He knows what he wants. We're very comfortable around each other. We are perfectly okay with adventuring around together in the car.
He's actually joining me on the accepted student day at our college (Yup, we;'re going to the same college, and no, we did not plan it). The university is about 4-5 hours away, so we're making it a one-day road trip. I'm very excited to see how this goes.

What do you think?

Should I tough it out with Jt, or explore the realm of civilian love affairs with Sexy Fire Fighter A?
Comment!
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Cheers!

Hamlet: Mass Murderer

The character of Hamlet, from Shakespeare’s play Hamlet, is the most influential instrument of suffering as he terrorizes several other characters such as Ophelia, her brother Laertes, their father Polonius, his childhood friends Rosencrantz and Guildenstern, and his own uncle King Claudius. However, Hamlet does not bludgeon all of these characters in the same way. Hamlet kills Polonius and Ophelia accidentally; Laertes, Claudius, Rosencrantz, and Guildenstern were murdered as a way of getting revenge for their mistreatment of Hamlet and his father.

In act three, Hamlet also commits manslaughter as he stabs Polonius while talking to his mother. Polonius was eavesdropping on Hamlet for Claudius out of sight. Although this was an accident, Hamlet does not feel any remorse in part because Polonius forced Ophelia to ignore Hamlet and return his letters of affection to him, but also because he is has become so desensitized to the act of murder. Hamlet also demonstrates this part of his personality by hiding Polonius’s body in the castle for the sole purpose of letting the scent of decaying flesh permeate the premises.

Hamlet brings misfortune to Ophelia in more ways than one. At first, Hamlet pretends to be crazy, denies his love for her, and insults her by telling her to become a nun (act three). He leaves Ophelia in order to continue his charade of insanity, and this breaks her heart. This sends Ophelia into a deep depression which eventually leads to her death (scholars debate whether or not Ophelia’s death was an accident or suicide). Not only does Hamlet harm Ophelia through the first confrontation, they encounter several small conflicts together throughout the play. Ophelia’s death follows immediately the death of her father Polonius (also caused by Hamlet) in act four.

Ophelia’s insanity and death combined with the death of his father causes an extreme hatred for Hamlet to build inside Laertes. Laertes returns home in act four just before Ophelia dies. During Ophelia’s funeral, Laertes attacks Hamlet and tries to beat to him to death, literally. Claudius, in his several attempts to kill Hamlet, gives Laertes the opportunity to get revenge on Hamlet through a fencing competition with a poisoned rapier. Claudius also plans to poison a cup of wine in the event that the rapier does not impail Hamlet’s body (act four).

Hamlet discovers that Claudius poisoned his father Hamlet Senior in order to take the crown and marry Gertrude through the ghost of his father in act one. This is when Hamlet decides to kill Claudius as a form of revenge for his fathers death. Claudius also sends Hamlet off to England (act four) and makes arrangements so that as soon as he arrives, he will be executed. Hamle had planned to kill Claudius as soon as possible, but his desire to affirm the accusations made by the ghost inhibited him from taking immediate action. This allows for major plot developments and several other deaths. Hamlet, in the final act, kills Claudius with the poisoned rapier that Claudius planned for Laertes to use in Hamlet’s assassination. By this time, Hamlet is not only motivated to avenge his fathers death, but also by the many complications and attempts to end Hamlet’s life made by Claudius.

In his effort to off Hamlet in England, Claudius sends a letter with Rosencrantz and Guildenstern to make sure that the plan is executed. Rosencrantz and Guildenstern were sent as guards of Hamlet to make sure that he arrives in England in act three. Hamlet, in his devious ways, returns the favor (so to speak) by editing the letter and replacing his name with theirs. Upon their arrival in England, they are killed.

Hamlet’s actions start as accidents, and sequentially become more purposeful, escalating to the point of premeditated murder. Hamlet did not intentionally cause neither Ophelia’s depression or her murder. When Hamlet killed Polonius, he had the intention of killing the person behind the curtain -- regardless of who it was. Hamlet sees that it is Polonius, and does not care. This marks Hamlet’s transformation as a character who goes from trying to get revenge for a just cause to someone who is murdering people for minor offenses. By the end of the play, Hamlet has intentionally killed Laertes, Rosencrantz, Guildenstern, and Claudius. In turn, Hamlet aids his own unfortunate death. His inability to control his intentions and refrain from bringing suffering to those he encounters causes him to lose control and everyone -- including himself -- dies because of it.